Struggling to turn "HOLIDAY MODE" off!

After two and a half months of holidaying from my usual, workaholic routine, I have finally forced myself to sit down and write - even if it sound gibberish to everyone, just so that I break the silence! (hence, excuse the glitches here and there as I won't take time to proof-read and edit what I write, as it will give me yet another excuse to delay posting something from my dormant blog!)

Although my actual holiday was just 3 weeks from 7th July to 28th July, it's funny how it made me so lethargic ever since I got back that, every night when I self-account to see what all I have really achieved out of my day, I have almost nothing to be proud of - really....(SIGH)

So, I have been blaming it on the weather which, by the way is extremely hot, and might be one of the reasons for my lethargy and humdrum attitude. I also found this article relevant to my so-called disorder - the Summer Seasonal Affective Disorder (SSAD): http://query.nytimes.com/gst/fullpage.html?sec=health&res=9C03E4DA103AF930A2575BC0A9649C8B63

The funny thing is - I'm one of those born and bred kids out here in the UAE, and to say I probably am suffering from SSAD is - quite 'sad'...literally! (hehehe)

But of course, the right one to blame is SHAITAAN.

When I look at all the things I have in my pending list, and the nature of it all revolves around community and religious works - it does make me realize that unfortunately, my soul's remote control has been in the wrong hands lately!

So Mr.Shaitaan has put me on 'holiday mode', with Energizer batteries on my remote control and has also probably had some Red Bull himself, to drive me nuts a little longer before I make my come-back! (and this imaginative spree TOO is courtesy of Mr.Shaitaan - I mean, me - blaming my laziness on him and not doing much about it either - is the biggest sign that it really IS him!!)

Gosh..this will take me into an endless circle of nonsensical blabber, if I don't stop now..

But something for consolation: Recognizing the controller is one step achieved. Attacking him back is the next step.

Continuing with my struggle, and requesting for your du'as - for my success!

until next week..

Sadaf Z